Rant/ Venting.

I don't need any response. I just need to get this out there and off my chest. It seemed just a few short months ago that life seemed to be going pretty good, not great but working on it. It seems that since then one life disappointment has lead to another and another. It seems that drama and immature behavior has crept into my life and won't go away. I have been trying to ignore the situation which probably isn't the best thing to do but I am not sure what to do about it as I am unfamiliar with a situation like this. It is a terrible terrible thing when family disappoints you. It's one of the worst things that can happen to you in your adult life other than the death of a loved one. In away it's a kind of death of how a person is perceived and now that perception is forever changed. When a friend lets you down there is a feeling of hurt and disappointment but when its family, it hurts you to the core of your soul. I have been hurt and disappointed multiple times by my family almost to the point that I wonder if I really need that portion of my life anymore. It is a painful decision and believe me not an easy one. It can be compared to cutting a piece of your body away and expected to not to miss it but sometimes when a body part is diseased to the point that there is no cure then it must be removed to cure the rest of the body. These words may sound profound and deep but I am hoping that by writing this that it maybe cathartic to my soul. As Needles says that sometimes you just got to release it into the universe and let it sort itself out. I don't have a lot of faith that it will but I hope it sorts itself out before I have to start cutting.